It's been about a year since I have made a post. Mainly because I know no one reads my blog, but that's okay by me. A lot has happened I must say since I last wrote. I hardly feel like the same person. The decisions I have been making over the past 6 months are probably not in my best interest but they were fun. I feel like I am rebelling a little, or making my own choices. You see, I pretty much do what I am told or did what I was told without question. Lately I do what I want because it is what I feel I want at the time, not because some one told me so. That is the biggest thing about life, making your own decisions. And ya know with that you have no one but yourself to blame for the outcome of your actions, whether good or bad. I felt pressured under too many rules and regulations. It was like I was in a box and now I found a way out into the world.
The world...that is a scary place, by the way. I graduated college in December, and now I am a working person with a degree. Can't say that I love my job but I am finally working with people. The hours could pick up a little though. College graduate, with few friends in the city and not much else to do, only working part time. Yeah, that bites. I could use the money of a full time job too. I'm living in a little house with two other ladies, one of which I'd like to say a thing or two. To be honest I'd like to move out but I don't know where I'd go. There are more bills to pay now too; gym membership, gas, groceries, rent, food, credit card, recent dental, and anything else I decide to buy that I shouldn't. Can't save money to save my life. Paychecks are gone by the time I get my next one. And can gas stop going up, please!
One good thing that is going on in my life is my loving boyfriend, Austin. He treats me so good. Pretty sure he would do anything for me. And I am confident we will be engaged in the next month or so. Sooner would be nice rather than later. haha. It's so hard to hang on some times though. I feel like my life isn't right. I stayed here to be with him instead of moving back to Texas. I don't know what I'd do without him but dang, things are not going the way I intended after college. Psh, when does life go the way we intend though. At least I am blessed with a place to live, a job, and food. I am sure there are many life lessons I am gaining from all this mess I put myself in. And in the next 6 months I hope to be living better and happier.
-Wilderness Jane
